February 8, 2011
What would happen if you asked God what you should do today? If you knew the answer, would you do it?
This morning I had an interesting experience as I arose out of a dream of driving mountain roads too narrow to drive on, a baby given me by someone to keep for awhile, entering into a house with more rooms than you could count, and numerous unattached scenes only a dream can produce.
I don’t bother much with dream analysis so I can’t tell you what this means, but what happened few minutes later has set a tone for today (and I assume for tomorrow) that feels very good.
You see, I was thinking of all I need to do, from organizing my office to producing another post for the blog to making a video to contacting dozens of people to writing articles to sending birthday cards to planning a summer vacation, etc., etc., etc. I also thought about all the things other people tell me of what I should do. You can’t imagine how many emails I get sharing the fabulous news of how much money I will make if I only follow their secrets to unparalleled success.
I felt my stress begin to rise and I hadn’t even gotten out of bed.
However, this time of the day is probably my most meditative and, as I often do, I said something like, “God, what I should be doing today?”
The answer I heard did not turn my list into priorities but went straight to the point. What I heard was something like this, “Why do you ask? Just continue to turn your heart and mind toward the goal of making a difference in the world, of giving whatever gifts you have. Then you will find an unfolding, and do-able, path on which you can gradually get done what needs to be done. Stop thinking about what you think others think you should do. Let others do what they can do.”
It wasn’t an earth-shattering thought; a good one, but hardly original. After all, how many times have you heard that you should “be the best you can be,” or that “only you can live your life?” I’ve quite often written those same words, or variations on the theme, for others.
What made this morning different was that those words went directly from the thought to an experience. Without any analysis, I knew the answer of what I should do was very simple and very true. Not as a philosophy I needed to adopt, but an experience I needed to hold onto deep inside.
As I said in the flash presentation of Explaining a Spiritual Experience, you can’t really describe such experiences. You can only have them. Then your responsibility is to live what you have learned.
As these thoughts became more clear, my body relaxed and I knew that I could do what I needed to do today, and in the future, without feeling I wasn’t enough. To say it was a relief is a vast understatement. It felt as though I was on a path created just for me, as corny as that may sound. The pressure to meet the expectations of others simply melted away. The pressure to prioritize also fell away. I knew that when I went into the office that I would do what needs to be done without worrying that I was leaving some other bit of work undone. Eventually everything will get accomplished. Or it won’t. In a universe so outrageously vast that it is beyond my comprehension, it won’t matter whether or not I finish everything.
All I can do is to do my part of what needs to be done as well as I can. And I believe I can do that if I stay on my own path and don’t take detours to follow the paths of others.
Do you know if you are on your own path?